Hey guys! It’s Hannah. Treatment and bipolar disorder.
Treatment in any mental health condition. So I have touched on this in many prior videos, so please subscribe to my YouTube channel
if you have not seen those. I’ve just been receiving all of these
messages from people. What are the correct methods for me to live a great life? And it really makes me sad. And I have to talk about
how I got to where I am right now. The overall theme of these messages
and what I hear what you’re saying is this: Treatment! It’s just not working. I’m gaining weight. I’m tired all the time.
I can’t be productive. I’m more depressed. And I’ve been there. It took me 5 years
to get on the right routine of medications. And I’m always gonna have to adjust them. Stable is a very difficult word for me because I feel like with bipolar disorder
we relate stability to this bipolar enlightenment. No. No, I’m never gonna reach that. And what happened was that when I first
started going to see psychiatrists, for an example, I felt like
there was this hierarchy. Like I was sitting across from them and
they were looking in their textbooks and saying to me: “I know what happiness looks like for you.
I know what’s best for you.” And that didn’t work with me. I think people don’t understand that people with
bipolar disorder, we don’t like to be controlled. We reject that. So when somebody is kind of looking down
upon us, it doesn’t make us, make… Who the hell likes to look down… Who the hell relates to somebody or
trusts somebody that looks down on them? I mean, it’s as simple as that. Okay. I sat down and instead of trying to go by
what other people thought stability or happiness look like for me, I wrote out how I define happiness. Whatever that may be. Okay? Because everybody is different. And I walked into my psychiatrist and
basically brought this in. Not the whiteboard, per se. But doc, this is what I feel like now: Insecure. Depressed. Lethargic. Not motivated. Empty. This is what I want to feel like: Energetic. Excited. Confident. Motivated.
Social. Most importantly, alive. Now this isn’t gonna be 50/50,
but this was 80% of how I felt. That’s not treatment! I’ll do whatever it takes to
make this 80% of my life. For now! It’s important you share
your approaches to treatment. And I see your comments and
I hear you. I’ve been there, right? I mean, I’ve been hopeless. And I said this in a couple of videos,
but I’m gonna repeat it because it’s important. The thing is with treatment and bipolar disorder is bipolar doesn’t define me but it is a part of me. And when people try to a erase it from my life, they erase the part of me that I do love. There is a way to embrace it. There is a
way to find it. It takes hard work. Let’s keep this conversation going. I can’t wait to see what you all have to say. And I will see you next week. Bye.