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Hey guys! It’s Hannah. Treatment and bipolar disorder.
Treatment in any mental health condition. So I have touched on this in many prior videos, so please subscribe to my YouTube channel
if you have not seen those. I’ve just been receiving all of these
messages from people. What are the correct methods for me to live a great life? And it really makes me sad. And I have to talk about
how I got to where I am right now. The overall theme of these messages
and what I hear what you’re saying is this: Treatment! It’s just not working. I’m gaining weight. I’m tired all the time.
I can’t be productive. I’m more depressed. And I’ve been there. It took me 5 years
to get on the right routine of medications. And I’m always gonna have to adjust them. Stable is a very difficult word for me because I feel like with bipolar disorder
we relate stability to this bipolar enlightenment. No. No, I’m never gonna reach that. And what happened was that when I first
started going to see psychiatrists, for an example, I felt like
there was this hierarchy. Like I was sitting across from them and
they were looking in their textbooks and saying to me: “I know what happiness looks like for you.
I know what’s best for you.” And that didn’t work with me. I think people don’t understand that people with
bipolar disorder, we don’t like to be controlled. We reject that. So when somebody is kind of looking down
upon us, it doesn’t make us, make… Who the hell likes to look down… Who the hell relates to somebody or
trusts somebody that looks down on them? I mean, it’s as simple as that. Okay. I sat down and instead of trying to go by
what other people thought stability or happiness look like for me, I wrote out how I define happiness. Whatever that may be. Okay? Because everybody is different. And I walked into my psychiatrist and
basically brought this in. Not the whiteboard, per se. But doc, this is what I feel like now: Insecure. Depressed. Lethargic. Not motivated. Empty. This is what I want to feel like: Energetic. Excited. Confident. Motivated.
Social. Most importantly, alive. Now this isn’t gonna be 50/50,
but this was 80% of how I felt. That’s not treatment! I’ll do whatever it takes to
make this 80% of my life. For now! It’s important you share
your approaches to treatment. And I see your comments and
I hear you. I’ve been there, right? I mean, I’ve been hopeless. And I said this in a couple of videos,
but I’m gonna repeat it because it’s important. The thing is with treatment and bipolar disorder is bipolar doesn’t define me but it is a part of me. And when people try to a erase it from my life, they erase the part of me that I do love. There is a way to embrace it. There is a
way to find it. It takes hard work. Let’s keep this conversation going. I can’t wait to see what you all have to say. And I will see you next week. Bye.

17 thoughts on “Hey Doc! Bipolar Treatment Isn’t Just about Stability

  1. Yes. Yes. Yes!! Be your own advocate. Doctors are educated on illnesses, treatments, etc. But only YOU are an expert on YOU

  2. Sometimes I feel like I want to give up. I’ve been treated for mental illness for ten years. I’ve had my share of ups and downs. Alongside of that, I’ve worried about what kind of career I would like to do. I’ve felt lost and confused. I guess I’ve been going through a quarter life crisis as well. Mental illness has took years away from me and I’ve felt behind everyone else. I try to remember that I have my own path to follow. Life is not a race.

  3. I'm diagnosed with Bipolar 1 disorder for a year now. And in the beginning, it was really hard for me (it still is sometimes)
    I'm still struggling because doctors didn't find right medications for me yet. But I have hope. And I think I finally found a way to follow my own path. I decided to study psychology and that was probably the best decision I have ever made.
    Some people say I can't do that, that I can't help to people when I have mental illness myself but I want to prove them that they are wrong.

  4. Hi Hannah, This question has come up a lot for myself with bipolar.
    How often does bipolar medication change for an individual?
    With someone I know, their medication has been reduced and one eliminated. So far so good with stability. Their medication has been stabilized.
    Should we expect the medication to change at some point in the future?
    Everybody's stability would be different, life events can effect mental health.
    Is it more common to have one's medication change with bipolar?
    You mention, you expect your medication to change throughout your life. Is there a clear sign that you notice to want to alter your medication?
    Kelly

  5. Finding a doctor you can trust can be as difficult as finding the right medications. I've met some terrible doctors, especially when I first started fighting this. They got frustrated when I didn't understand how depression and anxiety could affect me physically to such an extent. I realize now that they probably didn't understand, either. Have I mentioned the doctor who didn't actually have a medical degree?
    My current doctor is okay…I think. It's hard to trust after all that. During our first session, she said something that upset me, and I drove home fuming and worrying that I had to find a new psychiatrist. I was about halfway there when it occurred to me that she was pretty much right, and that I've had the same thought many times before.

  6. But it doesnt make sense. You are getting diagnosed with bipolar because of the "future side". To psychiatrists a persom who is alive,who is conscious,who feels more…is alive…yet is seen as sick.

  7. Another great video Hannah!. Keep up the great work!!. I was just diagnosed with bipolar ii disorder 2 weeks ago and still getting used to it.

  8. Your videos are great and give me hope. Especially what you said about you have to keep hope alive. This video is exactly what I’m feeling. Im weaning off antidepressants and just starting mood stabilisers. Feel like what you said at the beginning of the video but I want to feel different in the future.

  9. Just wondering, what are your thoughts on marijuana and bipolar disorder? Do you think it can trigger/worsen episodes or that it can be used to help stabilize?

  10. It took me a lot longer to find the right medication. Years of taking antidepressants and having thoughts of hurting myself all the time was taking it’s toll on me, thankfully I found a the right medication and it’s just 2 pills before bedtime, not 8 or 9 pills anymore. The benefits? No more thoughts of hurting myself, I enjoy life more. I can think clearer and make healthy decisions.

  11. It was so hard to find someone who understood me! My last doc just kept upping my dose and I kept feeling like I was gonna explode from all the adrenaline I had. I wanted to run marathons when I had previously mostly felt depressed and lacked the will to live. It was such a scary experience to go from one extreme to the other, especially when it was exacerbated by medication. I felt like she wasn’t hearing me. I researched far and wide to find a good doc, he finally put me on the right meds but he had to finagle with them cuz it’s a very delicate art (he said). He helped me so much.

  12. Great video. I don't want to feel extremely depressed and hopeless or like a robotic, dull zombie all the time. I want to feel the true range of my positive emotions even though I can be on cloud 20 and must be careful not to overinflate myself or situations because of my idealism and imagination.

  13. Stability is to me the plague …my mantra has always included avoid stagnation at any cost …tradition is lack of progression

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